Its been awhile since I blogged. As a matter of fact, my last post was September 29, 2010 which is a little bit over a month. A lot has happened to me in that span of time between blog posts. Things ranging from me finding "love" to being cheated on and lied to by the same person twice.
Love can be misleading especially if you believe it was true... Honestly she deserved an Academy award
Besides that, this post is not going to be about how I was mislead and done wrong because I am truly over it and she will regret it in the end. In other words, I will win in the end and she will feel 100x's worse than I ever felt.
Vowing for revenge is not me, I am not that kind of guy, but I do believe in karma and what goes around comes around. Just ask Justin Timberlake...
Now continuing on to my blog post...
After going through everything I have went through between posts, honestly I am mentally and emotionally drained. I barely sleep, I eat very little, and I just lay around the house and watch television unless I have to work or go to school. I have literally became the emotionless hack that I refused to become. The only issue is that I am a fighter and there is a part of me that refuses to give up.
Starting to feel like another Rocky movie remake...
Every day when I talk to my friends, family, and those who generally care for me, I have hope and encouragement. They insist that I can do better, I deserved better than what I had, and I will find better. With their help and encouragement, I am slowly recollecting my sanity. It may take some time but I will learn to love and trust again but for the time being, I have to heal.
My kind of healing is unconventional and requires no band-aids, gauze, or neosporin...
All I need now is friends. The kind of friends that I can talk to, go out with, and experience certain pleasures without getting emotionally attached. In other words, I need multiple partners to help fill the void and get my mind off things. Anyone who knows me know that this may seem unlike me or that I am wrong for being a womanizer, but this is how I cope and heal. So with time I will eventually learn to trust and believe in someone worth believing in.
Until that time comes, my friends, family, and even myself will help me Recollect My Sanity...
