Reset

Over the past 2 maybe 3 weeks, I have been doing alot of erasing and forgetting. In other words, I started to reset my life and the people in it. I know you are thinking wtf, but I felt like that it needed to be done because most of the people in my life are bringing me down or they aren't worth the time or trouble. The resetting process had 3 phases so if you would like to take notes, this is the best time to get your paper and pen...

First, I changed my cell phone number. I have had the same number for about 8 years and changing my number was hard but it had to be done. When I changed my number, I gave the new number out to only the people in my life that were either my friends, family, or people that were important to me. So in other words, if they was a hoe or wasn't worth my time, they got erased from my phonebook and life.

Second, I disassociated myself with people who were negative or was not doing anything with their life. I used to associate with negative people who brought others down along with myself. I got rid of the gossippers, back stabbers, liars, cheaters, and deadbeats. I felt like my life did not have room for these types of people so I erased them. The people who were not doing anything with their life, were the people I reached out to with a helping hand, but they rejected help and even went so far to try to use me. Again, I cannot help people who does not have the desire to help themselves. In other words, if you cannot help yourself, I cannot help you, so they got erased too.

Third, I got rid of the deadbeat friends. Friends that ignore phone calls, texts, email, or any type of reaching out I went out of my way to do, are now and will be considered dead to me. I cannot have people in my life that do not wanna be there so I'm giving up on reaching out. In other words, If you cannot simply send a text, phone call, or keep rejecting invites, then you are not worth keeping. I have friends that ignore me or come up with repeated excuses why they cannot hang out so I'm done trying. There are definitely better people who are worth my efforts. So to all my deadbeat friends, you are erased.

I may seem a lil cold but I had to reset my life and the people in it. This post mainly explains the people in my life that are now dead and gone but getting rid of them is the beginning process of changing myself. For example, I had like 30 girls numbers in my phone who were potential girlfriends or just hoes. I sorted through the names and numbers and now I'm down to 5 numbers. I kept the girls who I believe are good girls or have potential to be good. The process of resetting everything in your life is hard and stressful but starting over and re-doing everything is an experience worth the pain. Right now I have no potential girlfriends or no one to call my own, especially after I erased so many numbers. As a result, I have had alot of time to just sit alone with myself and recollect and re-evaluate my life thus far. In other words, resetting my life has allowed me to re-familiarize with myself. I am gaining an identity and appreciating everything about myself and those around me. My life is reset but I have a feeling that my life is going to be a god life.

What's To Come?

Now that I have decided to blog again, I have so many ideas running through my mind. First off, I will try to post at least 1 new blog every week. Second, I will try not to be boring. And finally, I encourage comments because I want to argue... I used to be an aspiring journalist and arguments are my passion so when you see the opportunity, argue!

Something else new I am thinking about doing is posting a weekly series about a non-fictional character. Of course this character will be based off people I know or have encountered. The point of having a weekly series is to help others realize that the same shit they are going through is universal with everybody. Also I want people to understand me a little bit better and I feel like the weekly series will help me accomplish that.

Next week, I start my weekly series and I will post a personal blog!... Besides all of that, keep an eye out for my blog because thing are about to get interesting and fun!

8 Month Absence

The past 8 months have been interesting... I mean so much has changed in my life and I guess I have a few explanation for my absence.

First, I transferred from Winthrop for various reason but the main reason for leaving is because I needed change. I'm not saying I outgrew Winthrop or I despise the great university, but I felt like I belonged somewhere else. And I will admit I miss all my friends, professors, and all those who have become a part of my family. I have mad love for you all and for Winthrop. I will always be an Eagle although I'm a adopted Limestone Saint. I will watch my Eagle every chance I get especially when they are in the NCAA basketball tournaments.

Second, I moved back home after a 3-year hiatus simply for financial reasons. I have always considered myself a mama's boy but I'm not that bad off. I moved back home in order to work, earn my own money so I wouldn't have to be constantly worrying about money. Also helping out my family financially is a plus.

Finally, I been absent for so long because I have not felt comfortable blogging. It sounds crazy but I felt like I let so many of my friends and family down by abruptly leaving Winthrop. But I have grown since then and realize that I am happy and thats all that matters. I am a Limestone Saint physically, but I am an Eagle mentally and spiritually. My heart will always be at Winthrop and that is one reason why I am planning on attending graduate school there.

Epiphany...

I had an epiphany...

Imagine if the whole syllabus situation was reversed? I know you are thinking wtf? But let me explain where I am going with this:

Imagine if, instead of the professor just giving us their class syllabus, we give the professor our own personal syllabus. This idea popped into my head when I had a week where I had 2 papers due, a presentation, and a test all in one week. Being a student is already hard enough so I believe that the students should give their professors their own personal syllabus. When I say "own personal" syllabus, I do not mean that we schedule in our personal activities such as, dates, playing ball, or going out to the mall. I mean that we, the student, makes our professors aware of what we have due and what is going on in our corresponding classes.

I believe this would help the student tremendously, knowing that their big paper is not due until he or she finishes their presentation. This proposal will help relieve stress, gpa's will increase, and the student and professor will have a less strenuous relationship. So both sides win no matter what. The only negative is that both sides will be required to do more work and possibly have more class time. I believe that staying in class an extra 30 minutes or having an extra session a week is worth having a stress free and higher performance collegiate career.

And again this is just an epiphany...

Letting GO!

Recently I have noticed that people have a hard time of letting things or people go. I understand that it can be hard to let go. I had a hard time letting go of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, the Power Rangers, and my Superman tighty whiteys but I did. Those are just example of how letting go can be an embarrassment.

The theme of letting go came today because I had to let someone go. The main reason I let her go was so we both can be happy and live. Another factor was that her parents did not like me and it was stressing both of us seeing each other sparingly. The only thing that prolonged both our pain was love. I am not the soft hearted or Romeo type of guy but this girl made me fall and I had her loving me too. I was walking back from one of my classes today and heard a song that inspired me. The song was by J. Holiday song titled, "Fly". All I basically did was man up and made the decision to let someone, whom I truly cared about and possibly could have spent my whole life with, go. Letting go is a sign of maturity and understanding. I understood the situation was tough on both of us so I made the decision because we both knew that neither one of us was willing to let the other person go.
Another situation that happened recently to someone I am close to. He faced a dilemma to choose 2 great girls. I am not going to give away any names or clues to who it is but I can say it is not me. Anyway, the situation escalated to the point where my friend had to make a decision. In other words he had to hurt someone and break their heart. As we all know, boys are indecisive and cannot make a concrete decision. So with that being said, my friend chose one girl but kept going back and forth between the two until he had to make a decision or lose them both. He broke one person's heart but healed another heart. He has undergone a change and has even matured.
Letting go has been my whole theme for today because also in life, you must let people or things, that are hindering you, go in order to grow.
This growth could be translated into new found happiness or possibly finding something better to take the place of what u let go. My examples of letting go dealt with emotions but there are numerous other "letting go" situations. So today I challenge you to re-evaluate your life and figure out who/what is holding you back from being the best you can be.

Used...

I am a fan of poetry but I tried (and failed miserably) to do the slam poetry thing... So here is something I am going to spit at you. And I have to warn you that I am going to try to rhyme here and there and just go with it for the rest. So leave a comment about what you think this poem is about and I love criticisms. But I hope you enjoy my Poem titled, "USED":

As the package opens, wrappers fly everywhere,
She picks me up as if I was fragile,
She hugs me tight as I hide my face in her hair,
The scent of freedom ran through my nose,
The scent ignited something I hadn't felt in awhile,
I felt new and improved because I was the one she chose.

My life started to revolve around her like the moon revolves the earth,
I waited on someone like her for so long,
Emotions felt new like a newborn baby that has been through birth,
What I felt for her was too far from weak, but strong.

All that changed in one day,
She noticed that I wasn't sexy, rich, or drove a sports car,
I was too cute, honest, mature, and too spontaneous, in other words, the perfect dude,
Where I was and where she wanted me to be was so damn far,
There was nothing else I could say,
She pulled out a thin piece of paper as she wrapped me up, she huffed and puffed all rude.

I got thrown into a bag,
The next light I saw illuminated from where we first met,
the store where she bought me without any regret,
She complained like she was an old hag.

She hated that someone else got me pre-own,
I was played with one too many times,
I was too soft in the middle and my outside was only just bruised,
I was something different from what she had, and it was shown,
So she exchanged me for a couple quarters, nickles, and dimes,
Now I sit here all alone with a price and sticker that labels me as used.

Why Love/Hate?

My blogs name is "Love/Hate" mainly because some of the issue I discuss on here will make you love me or hate me. The name came from one of my favorite artist's (The-Dream) album titled, 'LoveHate'. To be honest, I'm not going to write certain things in my blog to impress or to infuriate anyone. All entries will be me venting out my opinion or something that is on my mind, and the topics could range from issues dealing with love all the way to me getting pissed off at my roommates. This blog will let the reader understand the complexity that is Bryant O'Neil Sarratt. So get ready to either LOVE me or HATE me...

Bryant 101

Hey my names Bryant Sarratt and I'm a junior at Winthrop University in Rock Hill, SC. My major is Mass Communications (Journalism) and my minor is Psychology. With my degree, I plan on doing some written media to start off and gain experience, but my ultimate goal is to be a well known sports writer and maybe be featured on ESPN. I'm a huge sports fanatic and a die hard Superman fan. I seem quiet and hard on the outside, but really I like to have fun and laugh. I only get serious when it comes to my family, my money, and my education so that explains why I never smile until the end of the day. My plan the rest of my life goes as follows: Graduate college, work, then get on my own 2 feet, then meet the future Mrs. Sarratt, get married, have a couple Ratts of our own, then die laying by my true love's side. Yea that was an AWE moment lol but thats just a lil bit about me... But continue to check out what is on my mind weekly!